Glaring over at him,
I see his face.
Looking intently at his test,
Knowing what is important in life.
Staring at him.
Not conscious of what I am doing.
Not realizing that he might notice.
Become entranced into deep thoughts.
Will he ever figure it out?
Saying this in my head with deep sorrow.
Will he ever know the truth?
Feeling guilt and sadness over come me.
How can he ever figure out the truth if I keep myself locked up inside?
I can't open the gates.
I don't have strength to open them.
Treating him like he is nothing.
Treating him as though he is my nuisance.
But he isn'tů
I hope one day I can show that I am not a mean cold hearted person.
I want to show that I have compaction and love.
That day will never come.
Knowing we will be separated.
Knowing he will never come back.
Someone calls my name.
I Shack out of my daze and joining the world again.
I become myself.
The person I have always beenů
The person I don't want to be.