A Hateful Love

Somehow you managed to find your way
past the thick walls and into my heart.
I was a fool to give you the key,
unaware of all the pain you'd start.

I was so bewitched by your charm,
and I can't seem to get rid of this spell.
I'm stupidly head over heels
for someone who makes life a living hell.

There's no denying I love you,
but how can I love someone I hate?
I detest every word you say,
yet it's for those words that I wait.

Each hug makes my stomach flip,
and I just want to wring your neck.
Your lovely eyes tease my soul,
you've turned me into an emotional wreck.

My hand would feel so satisfied
if it could slap your pretty cheek.
I need a gag to muffle your voice
every time it makes my knees go weak.

One day you say you truly love me,
but then the next we are just friends.
I wish I could stop loving you,
but this is where everything ends.

This hateful love is making me bitter;
the longing to hurt you makes me ashamed.
We're both liars, teasers, and players;
we played each other for fools in this game.

I'll push away the love in hopes it dies;
my cold cruel hate moves to cause pain.
I lie to you, insult you, yell at you, hurt you;
until your feelings for me are stained.

You never truly despised me before;
no, it was more like you didn't care.
We've sunk to a new level of emotion,
but now that you hate me too, it's fair.